[dropcap]I[/dropcap] haven’t written a blog post for over a week as I have been posting pre-written content. Usually, I am never in need of sitting down and writing because I tend to pick up the laptop and begin typing 3 hours prior to it being an imminent task for me to take on. However, it is currently 1 am and my post will publish in 8 hours. And this is what I have got. I have just planned April’s content and noted May’s and even started working on research for impending months posts. Yet this Wednesday morning I just don’t quite know what I want to write, type, say.
So, as the clock keeps ticking I have settled upon WHY I BLOG.
I have answered this question briefly in my blogger award posts If I am remembering correctly, but it cannot be answered in a few short sentences.
I started my blog in December 2017, and I guess at that very moment I started my blog because it seemed like something to do and something that might help. I am sure everybody has heard thousands of times just as I have how much talking, writing and just expressing and opening up helps and aids recovery, and general mental health. So I took the advice. My blog was just this for a few weeks and acted as something to pass time and fill my days with as I created social media platforms and emails for it and convinced myself I was ‘pro’.
Then something changed, my blog became more than what it started, as it became what it is now, and I became who I am now.
So why I started blogging isn’t why I blog, it is a part of it, yes, but why I blog is so much more.
In just over 3 months blogging has become more than an outlet and place of expression, it has become a part of me. My blog is my home, some days it is where my entire self-exists. When I escape to my screen and type away my mind’s ramblings, when I hide under my quilt and search for a way to forget life exists, when I feel myself falling and redirect myself through words, my blog saves me.
[pullquote]Every day my blog reminds me of how wonderful life is, how cruel the world is and how powerful I am.[/pullquote]
I blog to fight, to fight for the 84 men who commit suicide in the UK each week (Check out #project84 if you haven’t already!), to fight for every lost soul. I have been suffering from chronic, crippling, debilitating levels of anxiety for around a year. And I have decided that advocating mental health awareness, suicide awareness, men’s mental health and everything else in between is how I want to spend the rest of my life. I want to spend my life fighting for a cause that should have never been neglected and should never have been stigmatised by society. My blog has done that, blogging has given me a voice that reaches so many people, and each day my voice grows as my blog expands. – Share, comment, like, retweet, follow … Grow my family – grow our family.
I blog to remind sufferers of mental health conditions from Anxiety to Seasonal Affective Disorder that tomorrow does exist. And that I am walking beside everyone who wants me to as they take each small step towards tomorrow. I haven’t reached my tomorrow yet I am still walking the path but no matter how long it takes, each day I am proud of myself for moving forward and taking that step. Remind yourself that, and your loved ones, and the strangers you meet on your journey.
I blog because I love it.
I blog because I felt lost, I felt like my world had fallen into 1000 pieces and I thought nobody could put Humpty Dumpty back together again. But I am not an egg, I am human, and part of being human is learning that we are never lost we are simply living a different life than we convinced our mind must be ahead of us. Blogging like I said has become a feeling of being home, but that is also a result of the blogging community. I have met so many wonderful people and made friends who I know will be there on my hardest days to remind me that tomorrow exists. When all I thought I was has gone, blogging reminded me that all I am is all I think I am.
I blog because it reminds me each day that I am enough, worth-it, strong, powerful and making a difference.
I blog because…
I could go on forever, the list feels endless, fellow bloggers please comment, why do you blog?…
I started this post 34 minutes ago and I have never considered all the reasons I blog before but now I have; I have realised something. Blogging has changed my life.
I hope more late night ramblings from me have been bearable for you all to read.
Today Tomorrow Forever
“Blogs are whatever we make them. Defining ‘Blog’ is a fool’s errand.”