Mental Health Awareness Week. 14th- 20th of May 2018. Theme: Stress.
Mental Health has been on my radar all my life, however, not in the capacity, it is now. I have suffered myself for over a year now, and 2017’s Mental Health Awareness week passed me by, without me noticing. I was doing my exams, for my AS-Levels, going into them shaking and on bad days, mid panic attack. Scared to confess what was going on in my mind. And I didn’t really know what was going on in my mind.
This year, I am still suffering, still fighting, but RECOVERING.
A lot has changed in a year, a lot has happened, and nothing has happened all at the same time. I will not begin an endless list of people, things and opportunities that have flown by. You would get bored, I would get sad, and I would get STRESSED.
This time last year, I wouldn’t have ever had expected myself to be in the place I am right now, nor would I have wished it upon myself. But now I am here, I have so much to be thankful for.
I have started this post with a little blast of my past as it came to my attention that as my anxiety grew and my Mental Health took over my life in the debilitating style it has, people were raising awareness, so that people like me, got help and support before it got this bad.
And this year, I am joining those people, and I am joining the fight.
I started my blog in December 2017, it was out of boredom amongst other things, and here I am now, self-hosted and a self-proclaimed ‘Blogger‘. As my blog and social media platform grew, and my recovery continued, as I began to cope, giving me time to live too, Mental Health advocate Ella was born. And here she is now, in the run-up to Mental Health Awareness week 2018, talking, because that is all it takes to change the world.
This week coming, I am going transparent, as much as my anxiety allows, as talking, cameras and videoing tend to make me anxious.
What am I going on about, your asking?
As it is Mental Health Awareness week, I wanted to do something, more, something different. So I am going to be recording myself and taking photos of myself as much as I can this week, the good, bad and ugly hours! I intend on possibly going live on twitter if my anxious mind allows me. And in general, I am going to be over sharing. Because I am not ashamed of the truth. I am not ashamed of the person I am, the life I lead or the struggles I face; I am proud of them, I am proud of me.
Mental Health awareness has become a massive part of my life, and it has ignited a scary amount of determination and passion that only feminism can conger from me, and I am ready to fight.
My fists are down, but my voice is loud.
My pain is muted, but my anger is burning.
My anxiety is still here, but SO AM I!
What Can You Do?
You can talk, you can listen, you can learn. Mental Health doesn’t demand much.
Ask your friends how they are, do not laugh at the man who has tears drowning his eyes, listen to those who ask for your time. But most importantly, make an effort to learn, shake your ignorance and open your eyes to the truth, if mental illness was a choice, I wouldn’t have missed out on my final year of sixth form.
If Mental Illness was a choice…
suicide wouldn’t be the leading cause of death for those between the ages of 20 and 34.
suicide wouldn’t be the leading cause of death for men under the age of 45.
one in fifteen people wouldn’t attempt suicide during their life.
Suicide isn’t a Mental Illness, no, but it is the cause of death for those who die from mental health conditions in the majority.
Mental Illness is fatal.
I will leave this post here.
Follow me on twitter @today_t_forever to watch my life on Monday.
And, ask, learn and listen.
I will be posting more Monday – Sunday all about M.H Week, I hope you check back in.
And if you are a sufferer of mental health – my message to you is, hold on!
Today Tomorrow Forever
‘ Mental Illness is not a choice, if it is, then so are heart attacks.’ – The truth.