Get to know #TTF… Ella

Mental Health

Get to know #TTF… Ella

Hello lovely,

How are you? Have you had a good week? What have you done to remind yourself you are enough this week? … let me know in the comments …

Now here is a post all about me, because I don’t know anyone who isn’t a little nosey!

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Most websites and businesses have a page of ‘frequently asked questions’ and it inspired me. But, the thing is people don’t ‘frequently’ ask me questions. So, I have compiled a list of questions that I wish people would ask about me…

The kind of questions that don’t necessarily pop up in conversation but give you an insight into my mind.

How would you describe yourself?

I would describe myself as strong, forgiving and hopeful. This past year my outlook of myself has completely changed, in the past I would have probably referred to my intelligence and honesty. However, fundementally I beleive I am prouder of other aspects of myself currently, especially my strength and optimism.

How would your friends describe you?

Now, I hope my friends would describe me as many things, and I was going to answer this question in said way, but I decided instead to simply ask them…

So here are the three words my four closest friends picked to describe me.

  1. Inspiring, confident, motivated.
  2. Strong, kind-hearted, generous.
  3. Outgoing, sensitive, funny.
  4. Intelligent, passionate, brave.

What kind of first impression do you make?

I have made a new friend recently and I turned to her for reference on this question. I would like to think my first impression is a warm and friendly one. This was confirmed when my new friend described me as funny, sweet and ‘a lovely girl’. I can only hope the opinion of me stays the same?…

What are you most afraid of?

*stares at the question for at least an hour*

I don’t think I will ever have an elequant, 50 word statement summarising what I am most afrain of. Especially not any time soon, because I have been staring into the abyss for far to long left drawing a blank. However, what I can say, is that everything I remotely fear, I know I will always be stronger than, no matter what. That is the thing with fear, no matter how scared I may be of many things, I know, that the fear will never win.

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What do you value most in life?

The thing I value most in life, and most importantly in my relationships with people, is honesty and respect. I try to honour these things myself, and truth be told do not always succeed, but I value them because honestly definitely is one of the hardest things to be. In the majority being honest is easy, but the hardest things are made easier by lies.

What is the biggest weakness of your character?

The biggest weakness in my character is my fear, as much as I present as being strong and unbeatable, or unscaved. I value how others view me highly and I often try very hard to be liked and fit in. This is something I am working on because it is unhealthy for me to feel I am not good enough as simply myself. It also makes me vulnerable and means the way people belive I am is far from the reality.

What is the most defining moment in your life so far?

This is a strange question and the first thing that comes to mind probably seems a strange choice for any of you reading.

The defining moment in my life so far, for me, is making the decision to leave Sixth Form/ Education. This decision is one I never thought I would make hence the impact it has had on me and it has redefinied my outlook on life and on my own identity. I spent a very long time with school as a big part of my identity and when withoutit, for a little while, I felt completely empty. The moment wasn’t a big one in appearance but within my mind and myself, it changed my life forever.

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What do you believe in most in this world?

The thing I have most faith in, in this world, is myself. I watched a film recently called Hoovey, and though its focus was religion and God in many of it’s references, and I am in no way religious. It did tell a story of faith and belief, and the difference between them. And, I must confess I believe in alot of things, and in alot of people. Though, I have faith in few of those people and few of those things, and this probably makes little sense if you do not understand the film reference. But, what I can tell you is that the person I have most faith in is me.

 

I hope you enjoyed reading a little more about me, I would love for you to share your answer to one of the questions, or any other questions you have for me.

And remember, if you cannot be strong, be brave my loves.

 

Today Tomorrow Forever,

Ella.

 

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2 Comments

  1. Ahh Ella!! I loved this post!! I don’t blame you for leaving sixth form, my boyfriend went, and by the end his mental health was awful. That was a year ago now, and its made him take a gap year. Luckily my education was in Canada, but A-levels really is ridiculous. Im proud of you for leaving and putting yourself first! Love you girl xx

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    1. Thank you for your continued support and cheerleading Zoe. I don’t know what I would possibly do without you! Love you millions!!!! XXXX

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