Browsing Category: Mental Health

My Future: Holding on to Hope.

Looking to the future, with hope… Foolish, naive, idiotic. Optimistic, hopeful, determined. I don’t know which collective of adjectives is best suited to describe my dreams as an anxiety-fueled 19-year-old with nearly four years of fight under her belt. 4 therapists down the line. and multiple combinations and doses of medication trialed and tested. I regularly […]

Finding Success in Failure

Hello my angels, let’s talk failure, Welcome back to #TTFElla, if you read one of my more recent posts you will know that I am currently battling my second relapse, fighting chronic anxiety really hard. Again. You can check out this post by clicking here. One of the important things for me when my anxiety […]

Relapse.

RECOVERY IS NOT LINEAR. It is drilled into me. I have always known that my journey to tomorrow shall not be a straight forward one. I have even faced relapse and picked myself back up again finding the strength to push once more. However, even with all that, I didn’t think I would be back here. […]

Déjà Vu.

When people talk about deja vu and that feeling of going back in time suddenly not being present in the now but watching the past evolve for a split second I never really understood. As we face similar moments in our lives but nothing is inherently the same as something that happened days or years […]

309 days of Recovery.

Bed-bound, crippled, tears rolling down my face my journey to recovery began. I was at rock bottom, I couldn’t fight any longer, I couldn’t tread water any longer, I couldn’t do it alone. Wednesday the 19th of December, 1400 hours, I met my therapist. I sat in my bed, under my covers, delicate. My therapist […]